And I watch them fall everytime,
Secretly, I'm a fan of HSM. Feeling quite, okay fine, very sentimental. So bear with me.
I need to disappear for awhile, to study, to think, to breathe. That kinda thing. I miss a hell lot of people, perhaps people I've neglected and shouldn't forgive me for doing so, like Jessica. But it's been a long time since I've stopped and looked back at exactly what has happened to me. Or rather it's been a long time since I've faced up to everything that has happened. And yet, I'm not about to do so. Cause facing up to things means that I'm admitting that they happened. I'm the worst when it comes to confronting myself. Perhaps one of the best things about me is that I'm a great pretender, likewise the worst thing about me is that I'm a great pretender.
I don't exactly know what's my point here.. Cause one moment everything could seem so clear to me as if I'm on a verge of a breakthrough, and then my mind goes blank and I forget everything I was thinking, feeling.
And this is what makes gf so important to me. Because the only time I don't feel so perplexed and so confoundedly mental is when I am thinking of her. Because the only feeling I'm sure about is my feelings for her. Because she gives me something to hold onto when most of the time I really do feel like giving up on everything. Because without her, I would have nothing to believe in. Because she makes me the happiest when I don't even feel like living. But she doesn't know all this, at least I think she doesn't. Cause if she did, she would realise that she is the most important thing to me. And that I wouldn't have it any other way.
By the way, I miss you baby.
So leaving behind my convoluted thoughts, I brought Hammie to school on Friday to make friends with Shir and Hian. Other than that I've had a dull weekend. Mummy didn't let me go for training on Sat claiming that it's a PH and that she wants the family to spend the day together, :/ So, sorry girls. Sorry we couldn't go get our mass haircuts, :( And so I spent the day swimming and playing with my sisters and the neighbour's dog, Hoorah. And as for today, I worked on my OC presentation and am currently trying to understand Mechanics.
In other words, I need to go study really badly and so I leave you guys with some pictures which I guess makes the whole entry so much more interesting, right.
