No school tomorrow for me :D But then again exams are in three weeks, like exactly. Need to study, :( 5papers no joke okay. And why are the past years Engineering Math so difficult.. The practices during class, class tests/quizes are so easy peasy but then the real paper itself is like wth. Maybe I'm just dumb. That must be it. Hm, polo training tomorrow. Am quite upset with myself. I like totally suck in Vamp. But then again it's not an instantaneous thing to be good in a new boat. But thing about me is, I lack patience in myself and put too much expectations on things. But I've learnt to detach myself from many things.
Anyway, it isn't that I mean to be so cold, so far away. But you see, I am like this so that the option to talk isn't available. Because to talk is to think, to open up all the hurt I've kept, to feel everything I am sick of feeling. And to feel, for me, is to fall apart. I just don't have the time, the need to fall apart. It's already taking so much to believe I'm stronger than this. And so, I'm like this because getting to me is too easy. My guard is just up for now. How long? I don't know. And, I'm just sorry. I know I'm difficult.
I have many new songs to listen to, but no mp3 and no earphones for my phone because soap spilled in my bag and spoilt them!@?#!@$#@%!%
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Okay, me no moody to bloggy no more.