Yesterday I couldn't sleep even though I was really damn it utterly tired. I am tired everyday, :( Anyway, I couldn't sleep so I thought I needed to be more tired to be bale to just knockout. So late at night I went to the back of my house and did some pull ups..
That was random. But anyway, I am really tired again, but I can't seem to rest. I think I am actually very tense about the Open's next week. But as usual I don't pretty much express myself up to when I cannot take it anymore. But nowadays during training I am on the verge of crying when I cannot do some things that I know I can do, like when I have so many chances of shooting during a game but all are just very bad shots. So I know I am stressed out about it though I will happily tell everyone not to worry and just have fun playing. I don't know, I don't feel as strong as I know I am.
On another note, I miss Theresa very badly. The only one who would go club and drink with me. Heh. I miss my partner. When I am really moody, which is hard to tell since I always look like I'm ready to kill someone in the pool, Theresa would try to cheer me up and it will annoy me. She would poke smiles into my face, like really use her hand and force me to smile. But it works, you know?
Okay, that's all.
bye.