So where was the passion when you need it the most?
I am very stressed out.. Not cause of MST, that's still okay, I guess?
Cause MST hold lesser percentage than end of semester exams.
I'm stressed out because school is gonna start and projects/presentations will swoop in, then soon it'll be Exams!
AND RIGHT, IVP IS SO DAMN NEAR, :(
Honestly I really want to just train hard and give my best.
But lately for polo I haven't been playing well, personal skills are improving like I can finally do a proper Bow Turn, whoohoo.
But my game play is like shit, my everything else is like shit.
My zoning is going down the drain and my shooting during the game can eat shit.
I guess I won't be so disappointed with myself if I didn't know that I could do better than this.
It's not like I'm not trying, I just don't know what's wrong.
As for sprint, I haven't gone rowing in a week, :(
And won't be going till after MST.
As confident as I am with my T1, I'm still damn scared to compete because I know it will kill me to not win T1 having come so close last year.
I told myself last year that I will come back stronger and win T1 for the girls this year.
Oh my god, I am ranting.
The truth is, I am afraid to feel the pain of losing a game, a race, a person.
But I would rather live with the pain than regret not trying.
But it's so scary, I wonder if the girls are scared too..
:(